Ascending (v): moving, going, or growing upward; moving or progressing toward a higher level or degree.
Everyday life gives us the opportunity to connect with who we really are, to love ourselves and be of service. Some would call this doing "the work." It may be as simple as smiling at the barista at the coffee shop and sharing a hello to comforting your daughter after she is hurt, or it may be giving an inspiring talk or supporting a mom who has lost her child.
When things are going smooth, we are in the flow and business, health, and relationships are all going well, it is easy to connect to our Self and the higher vibrational states of joy, gratitude and unconditional love. In these moments inspiration flows like a spring creek after a winter storm. I have experienced these wonderful states including joy, reverence, and deep peace and let me tell you it is not hard to love ourselves, love life and give to others during those moments.
But what about when things are not going so well? When inspiration is stuck in your throat like a clogged drainpipe and every plumber in town is busy for like the next year. When you're heartbroken at the loss of a relationship? When you're experiencing the effects of chemotherapy and still rattled by a cancer diagnosis? When your MS has flared and you're symptomatic? When your finances are in ruin and you have declared bankruptcy? When you're ending your marriage? Or you are grieving the loss of your child? What then?
In those moments, it can seem as though your world is in a tailspin. That you are falling into unending chaos, heartache, and pain. It can be easy to slip into unhealthy patterns: judging yourself, comparing your worth, asking why is this happening to me? The question playing out like a record skipping over and over. In these challenging moments, we can become entangled in our wounds, our shadow. But here in lies the beauty. This is when we are truly called to do "the work." I mean REALLY do the work.
And what do I mean by "the work?" It is slightly different for everyone but the fundamentals are the same. To let go of judgment and reconnect with yourself, to love yourself and others during the difficult, the challenging and the fearful times. To see your wounded patterns, own them and not throw them into your blind spot. And to give yourself compassion, understanding, and space to grow.
During these times It is important to ask the right questions. To reframe why me to where do I go from here? How do I grow from this? How can I be a better version of myself? And just like a forest after a raging fire sweeps it's floor clean and leaves behind brilliant pink wildflowers, you will transform your life.
After experiencing postpartum depression, the death of my mother when I was a new mother, insomnia, anxiety and the unraveling of my marriage five years ago, I had nowhere to turn but within. It was then I discovered going within is my greatest strength. It is a place of renewal and immense resource. A place where we can move through challenging emotions and create a garden of compassion and forgiveness. It is here we meet who we really are. And discover where love itself resides.
Once again, I find myself - my emotions, my thoughts in a state of unraveling. But this time, it is different. This time I am DIFFERENT. I know who I am. I trust. I believe. I love myself. EVERY aspect of myself. And while things are ending, relationships are transitioning, my life seems in disarray, and I have felt hurt and anxiety and sadness once more, there is only one way to go from here. And well I may not be flying, I am certainly fucking ascending.